Constraints that I discovered to writing

I LOVE drawing pictures with crayons; it feels so good. I feel like a child again. As I draw, I wonder why we ever stop coloring with crayons. Why do we ever get to a point in our lives where we are too old to color or to mature? What exactly is it? 

As I drew pictures of what my constraints are to writing, I discovered that when it comes to free writing, I have a hard time coming up with a subject to write about. If I'm given a subject, I don't have a problem writing. It’s when I have to come up with the subject that my mind goes blank. This is why I have never created a blog before. I have had the desire to do so but the first thing that comes to my mind is “What will I say?”  I ponder that for some time and then I don’t start the blog because I can’t come up with a subject.

I have recently been thinking that I need to just start writing about my journey and self discovery. The next thing I think is that no one would want to read it. I know where that is coming from. It’s the feeling that my voice is worth something. It is believing that what I have to say is valuable and it’s worth reading. It’s time to start!

One of the other constraints that I realized is having the time to write. I am usually having thoughts about what I would want to journal or blog when I can’t sit down and write at that very moment. I need to come up system that I can take short notes wherever I am at or speak it in to a small recorder. Because by the time that I get home, I am not thinking about it anymore, nor do I have the time to write it down right away. I eventually lose the details. By the time that I can sit down and write about my experience, most of the details that make it interesting have been lost in my brain somewhere.

Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated as this has been something that I have thought over for the past few years.